One of the hardest decisions I have been having to make is what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I must decide what senior college I will transfer to, what my major is, and where I will work. Do I want a job to earn the most money, or get a job I love? I have always had a passion for helping people. I either wanted to be in the medical field, forensics, or education.
As a child, I wanted to be a nurse, veterinarian, or doctor. My mom always told me she could see me in the medical field. My mom is a doctor of physical therapy, and I use to love going to work with her in the hospital. Three years ago, I was planning to be a nurse practitioner. I thought this would be so good for me. I could wear cute scrubs, and help people.
All this changed when I decided I wanted to write. I wanted to get a degree in English and teach creative writing in colleges and high schools. I thought this job would be perfect for me. I stuck to English for two years, but this year my ideas have been all over the place. I was thinking about forensics because I love mysteries such as Aurora Teagarden, Garage Sale, Nancy Drew, and Bones. I wanted to go to USM to get my degree just as my dad started out in.
I then started shifting my ideas when I started taking Anatomy & Physiology this year. I loved learning about the human body and how it works. I had a really high grade in that class, and everyone complained about how hard it was. I felt like the medical field was just for me. I decided I wanted to be a pediatric nurse because of my love for babies and little kids. I began to worry if this was the job for me, and I began praying. I asked God to show me what I needed to do. To give me peace.
God answered my prayer a few months ago in my Zoology class. There were kids with mental disabilities and some that did not understand what we were learning in my Anatomy & Physiology class. I began to tutor them and help them. I loved helping and teaching. I then had found my passion. I wanted to be a teacher. A teacher can do so much for his or her students.
I will always remember a quote a woman told me at my church.
"I wanted to be a nurse, but I discovered a teacher is every job all rolled into one."
"I wanted to be a nurse, but I discovered a teacher is every job all rolled into one."
I strongly agree with this quote, and I believe being a teacher is one of the most important jobs. I can not decide if I want to teach secondary or elementary, but I know God will reveal it to me soon. When I tell people what I am planning to do, it is not easy. I just want to tell them what I want to do and not what God told me. Many look at me differently when I tell them my plans.
"Why would you want a low paying job like that?"
"You want to go to school for the rest of your life?"
"Good luck with those devils!"
The fact is, I do not mind having a low paying job of $30,000 a year. I would rather have a low paying job doing something I love and am passionate about rather having a high paying job doing something I hate and can not enjoy. All I care about is making a difference in kid's lives. Many kids these days do not have anyone to care for them outside school. Their parents do not have time for them. All I want to do is make them feel loved. Most of them are never told "I love you" at home. This really triggers me hard.
I honestly can not wait for the day to teach and see what God has in store for me! Who knows, I may end up in the medical filed or criminal justice someday, but I want to submit to the plans God has in store for me.
In Jeremiah 29:11 it says, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
I have no idea what God has in store, but I am going to trust him. His ways are the best ways.
Sincerely,
Kayla R<3
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